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October 25th, 2009

02:34 pm - endings and vacations So, Bill broke up with me a couple of weeks ago. It was a ten month relationship, and definitely the most adult and intimate I've ever had. About a week later I went on a week long vacation to the east coast for my 5year college reunion and a stay with my college roommate and her boyfriend in south Philly. The vacation was awesome - good times connecting with old friends and acquaintances, a great mix of leisure and activity, amazing food and drink, and new sights and sounds. And of course, some decompressing from the relationship. In a lot of ways, I wish I'd pushed myself to make it work. The final reason for the break up was that classic story - he was more into me than I was into him. But I was really into him. And I still feel physical pain when I think of him. The emotional intimacy was real, and I keep thinking of things I want to tell him about. But my friend is no longer someone I can call whenever I want. I went on Facebook today and there were pictures from a trip he and his dad took to California while I was on my trip. It feels wrong that I didn't know about the trip ahead of time. I miss the guy. I miss our friendship. It felt natural to have him as my boyfriend. Which is probably why it was good to let it end when it did. I really hope there is a chance that we could become friends, though. I've never done that with an ex. Awesome memories from my trip... Mum in concert Bagel with cream cheese and tomato Wandering the beautiful streets of Rittenhouse philly Dinner with Marilyn Subway adventures Coffee, a zine, and a canadian censorship graphic novel off of South Street Shopping with my girl Crepes Sabrina's Reading Terminal Reading in a cool music studio in the burbs Puppets with Brian Catching up with Marilyn, Megan, Scott, and Keith Seeing Sonja in her element at Time Canoodling with current Theatre Messiahites Driving the Turnpike in a rental while listening to the Decemberist's "The Hazards of Love" Remembering a little about how to get around in central PA Jerrold's pictures and coffee Philly's winning lots of ballgames (both at Elliott's and at the Sidecar) Choir memories... Current Location: OlyWA Current Mood: melancholy Current Music: mum Tags: boyfriend, college, music, sonja, theatre, vacations

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July 10th, 2009

05:57 pm so, my parents only left yesterday... crazy - they were going to be here for a month, and ended up staying 5. But now they are gone and I'm beginning the adjustment to solitary living. It still feels unreal - in fact, I woke up this morning and took a moment to remember that they were gone. Work is killing me. Summer Reading is a bitch on youth services librarians. It's nice to be needed, but I'm running off my feet. And in a world with no subs, I'm on the desk ALL THE TIME. But it's still the right place for me. Bill and I had a rough patch, but that's better now. I just need to stay in the moment. And we're going on our trip in a couple of weeks! We went to the first GreenDay concert of their new tour, with my friend Anne. It was very fun, even with all the crowding, the standing for hours, the heat... I haven't been to a concert like that for years, and it was almost a religious experience. It's amazing how I felt like I was part of something in a crowd that big, 10 feet from Billie Joe. They throw a great party, it was real theatre up there. Admirable showmen. So now I need to go to more concerts. ;) How is everyone? Is it 82 degrees where you live? Current Location: OlyWA Current Mood: calm Current Music: Green Day Tags: bill, boyfriend, parents, update, work

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May 17th, 2009

12:48 pm life has been crazy. i'm still loving working at the Lacey library as a children's librarian. There are twists and turns that occasionally frustrate, and insane stuff is happening with the levy failing, but overall it definitely feels like where i'm supposed to be. I get to be an approachable know-it-all and influence the upcoming generations, and we all know that's what I want to do with my life. ;) my parents came home for a month-long visit in February and ended up staying - well, until now+. See, while they were in the states, they had a barrage of medical checkups, and it was discovered that my dad had prostate cancer. So, they delayed their tickets, and in midApril my parents flew to Virginia to have the surgery done by an old friend who just so happens to be a specialist in the field. And now he's healing (well), and they're getting their visas switched over so they may not go back until midJune. Although, at the moment, they're spending a week or so in EasternWA with my grandma. My relationship with Bill has continued very well. We match up in ways I never expected. We enjoy many of the same things, and at the same time show each other new layers of familiar places as well. We like to go on drives in rural Southwest WA (I've now visited Winlock!), watch quirky documentaries (i.e. American Movie), cook together (he cooks the steaks, I make the salad and set the table), and he's even started me on my first consule-based video game (Fallout 3). We go to my bookgroup together (librarian-types and book-lovers meet in cool downtown Oly restaurants and take turns talking about cool stuff - hook up via Goodreads.com), I've been to his gigs, he's written a song for me... So far, it's really really good. We're planning a longweekend in late July - probably to the Olympic Peninsula and/or Victoria/Vancouver B.C. Oh, and I've continued to attend Quaker meeting when I can. My parents demanding visiting-missionary schedule has made that increasingly infrequent while they're here, but whenever they're out of town, I'm there. I love the community, the solidarity, the depth. I look forward to very slowly and gradually growing my involvement in this group of seekers. Having my parents back has lightened the strain of household duties, since they are willing and able to help out with walking the dog (giving me one more hour of sleep), dishes, garden tending, lawn moving, laundry, etc. That of course has been nice, although there have been a few adjustments, as I've created my own way of doing things in some things. Part of the cutbacks at work mean my schedule will be changing, so I will no longer be going to work at 8am (and getting up at 5:30am) starting in June. I've successfully adjusted my internal clock so that I now get sleepy at 8:30 or 900pm, as I really do need those 9 hours of sleep. So I'm looking forward to getting one hour closer to my preferred 2am-11am sleeping schedule. We shrank the garden even more while my parents have been here, so now I only have two beds of corn and beans to worry about. Last year, the garden was too big - so that it was a stress instead of any kind of joy. Two beds felt just about right as I planted on Friday. I'm also growing two varieties of Morning Glories in the kitchen window - one bushy, one viney, to train around the window. Anyway, for those of you in PDX, I was thinking of you this weekend, as I played with the idea of showing up at Librarian Prom. I really do need to make it down and see some of you one of these days. Current Location: OlyWA Current Mood: satisfied Current Music: Zappa "One for the Money" Tags: chores, church, garden, librarians, mornings, parents, pdx, update, work

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October 12th, 2008

05:31 pm - new favorite song drool http://www.everclearonline.com/ Current Location: OlyWA Current Mood: chipper Current Music: Jesus Was a Democrat by Everclear Tags: download, everclear, jesus, music, progressive christianity

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